Healing is a Spiral Staircase (for those seeking to understand a difficult journey)

I had a dream about a person in my life who I sometimes pray with, where I was shown the big-picture structure of their woundedness.

I was shown a foundation of the structure, which was revealed to be the intense emotional and physical abuse they had regularly suffered at the hands of their own mother (who was a sociopath, in my amateur opinion). I was given a sense of the nature of the abuse, how it affected them, producing great insecurity and deep problems with self-worth.

Then, I saw that there was a ceiling to the structure which presented to the outside world, how this person had learned to survive by compensating for their deep sense of self-deprecation and vulnerability through a hard-core, tough as nails survivor persona. They had this side to them that could be described well with such terms as: “all or nothing,” “black and white,” “no compromise,” “boldly confrontational,” and even sometimes, “take no prisoners.”

Between the foundation and the ceiling of this structure, the walls or support system was made up of large spiral pathways which traversed the circumference of it all, and I woke up either unable to remember what these spiral pathways meant, or not to have comprehended them in the first place. I have since gotten to pray a little bit with this person, and have seen significant breakthrough, along with hearing later about how the Lord himself met with them and brought some further healing on their own time.

More recently, I have been praying for a while with a friend who has come from an even more intense background of abuse. I see a lot of progress in this person’s life overall, and on a good day they do as well, but at other times they have struggled with feeling like the same or similar issues to what we have prayed over already, which were apparently healed for a few days or weeks, would always come back to haunt them once again. When they experience these feelings, it is more than a little discouraging and confusing. For the sake of confidentiality, I’ll call the issue “abandonment.”

There are times where one prayer session produces (apparently) complete and long-term resolution for a serious, seemingly life-defining issue. I love those instances. They are like a bit of heaven on earth to me. (They are a bit of heaven on earth, but really no more so than the healing the other person is receiving in the midst of a more difficult process.)

This person’s process involves healing for a lot of very hurting fractured parts, many carrying a similar theme of wounding from abandonment, and I’ve tried to assure them that abandonment issues surfacing after a part or a number of parts have been healed from the same or similar thing doesn’t mean that the previous ones weren’t truly healed or that any problems actually “came back.” It only means that, as I’ve seen plenty of times before, another wounded part or parts are surfacing in the person’s overall system which need the same kind of healing as the previous ones.

As more parts get healing, the difference becomes more noticeable in the person’s life overall (as it already has for this person in very significant ways), until all the parts and related issues are healed and it completely goes. If the abandonment (or any other) theme of woundedness is particularly deep, this journey is likely to feel worse before it starts permanently feeling better, as the person’s system opens up in a safe, trusting environment to their most vulnerable areas and they start to get in touch with deeper, previously hidden layers of more severe pain, leading to the most significant experiences of permanent healing as a result of letting the Lord minister to the places which had been so walled off before.

The good news is that, unlike simple deliverance of a surface level stronghold, when such deep healing is accomplished, it becomes impossible for the issue to ever return. For the problem to ever come back, the person would need to become a child again, at the level of when they were originally wounded, and go through exactly the same things all over again, not as the adult they have become with a strong psyche, strong coping skills, and a strong relationship with God, but as that defenseless, vulnerable child who they never again will be after receiving healing. Where people are used to a deliverance mentality of fighting off demons who would “come back” to an “empty house” (where the demonic was removed but where truth and righteousness had not been established), this simply cannot happen when you heal the person, because they are the house. When you heal the person, you are changing the “house” itself at the most profound level to now be incompatible with the demonic.

So, if the enemy and the woundedness can’t ever just “come back,” why do so many in healing processes from severe hurts experience such ups and downs, where it seems like they are whole and free for an evening, a few days, or maybe a week or month, and then they are right back in a pit that feels almost exactly like the hopeless, miserable pit they were in before? If they really examine things logically, they usually find that this pit is slightly different than the previous one, with a slightly different lie behind the pain, a bit different of a trigger, that it is a bit different flavor of the same theme. But in these states of overwhelming emotions, it may be difficult to take mere logic seriously. Pain has a way of overriding that until it gets healed, and it can often be easily healed in the same way as the previous pain was healed. The lessons learned in applying healing to layers one through five often apply to layers six through nine in the same person, and so it becomes smoother and easier in this way as you go.

This is just how all humans process healing in real life, in layers rather than all at once. When there is a major and severe lifetime theme of a certain type of issue, you can bet that there will be more than just one or two layers of it needing to be ministered to, more than just one or two fractured parts carrying a lifetime of extreme abuse and neglect. Often, as the person just continues on receiving healing rather than giving up because their whole life didn’t change after a small number of prayer sessions, looking to the Lord as their answer rather than putting all their hope in a certain human or a certain methodology, much more ground begins to be taken from the enemy and from the woundedness, the balance begins to shift, and fruit becomes more and more evident.

For those saying, “where is that in the Bible,” consider that no biblical character was ever “completely healed and delivered.” All of them were in a lifetime healing process with ups and downs, with re-occuring issues, and with unresolved issues up until the end. We may be used to certain hyped-up preachers making things sound different in an effort to whip up our emotions and keep the money coming in, but most of us have seen that the long-term fruit of that is usually pretty shallow.

All the people Jesus ministered healing and deliverance to still needed more. Jesus warned them that their house had been swept clean and empty and that the enemy would return seven times worse. (They had only received a surface level of healing and deliverance so far, because it was all they were willing to receive.) In alignment with Jesus’ prediction, the same multitudes who received from him to some degree in his earthly ministry went on to participate with the powers of darkness in shouting, “Give us Barrabbas!”, “Crucify him!” and, “Let his blood be upon us and upon our children!” The apostles who spent three years living, praying with, and being discipled by Jesus all failed him in his final hours, revealing that they had remaining issues in their lives and had not yet been “completely healed and delivered.”

Peter struggled with legalism, hypocrisy, and fear of man years after the resurrection and after his experience at Pentecost. Paul confessed to having “fears within” in the beginning of 2 Corinthians, and to harboring an “angelos of Satan” near the end of the same letter, which he was apparently not yet ready to be delivered from. All the apostles (except possibly John) died at the hands of persecution, which couldn’t have happened if the enemy didn’t have some kind of access to them. The Pentecostal/Charismatic fantasy of coming to a meeting, getting hands laid on you and becoming perfectly fixed in five seconds of prayer has simply never played out in scripture or in anybody’s real life experience that I’ve ever met.

Getting back to the story, this particular person going through major ups and downs, like many in the midst of such a process, was struggling with doubts over whether they were really being healed at all, whether they were only being deceived and played games with by an enemy who was letting them feel like they got total healing just to get their hopes up for a few days or weeks, but then smacking them back down to reality every time. They reached out to friends who had experience with deeper healing, asking for opinions beyond mine. Also, they began desperately praying to the Lord for input.

They were shown a vision of a spiral staircase, and they began to understand that their healing was like this spiral staircase, moving upwards but in a circular fashion. In a sense, it could feel like they were only going in circles as they experienced times of peace and freedom from feelings of abandonment, then times of feeling major abandonment strongholds coming to the surface until they received ministry to the batch of parts carrying them, then a time of feeling peace and wholeness until the next batch of wounded, abandoned parts would surface once more, needing the same kind of healing. The good news was that they were not just going in circles, but making real progress.

Immediately checking back with one of the people they had sent messages out to, they read an answer from one with lots of experience. The message began, “Think of it like a spiral staircase…” Further good news was that they went forward with receiving healing for the areas which had recently surfaced, encouraged that they were, in fact, making progress.

Hearing this person’s journey and revelation, I began to understand a bit about the spiral staircases I had seen in walls of the structure in my dream. This is a revelation in process of course, but it seems that all of our healing processes are spiral in nature rather than linear. We face some issues and get healing for them, then some more come to the surface, and we get healing for those, and anybody I’ve ever known has been in a lifetime process of this.

Some run up the spiral very quickly, experiencing the ups and downs on opposite sides daily or weekly if they are really getting help and digging deeply. Some are going through such intense battles internally that they are forced to move this quickly or to just wallow in despair and denial. Others walk up the spiral casually, without much focus on such things, preferring to make slow progress without the stress of facing too much too quickly. More people probably wander aimlessly back and forth on the spiral, not knowing if progress is even possible or that there is anything they can do to expedite it, maybe just camping in one place for years at a time with no hope of moving forward other than if God somehow “sovereignly” came down to push them forward. I think these are the people who got “totally healed and delivered” ten or twenty years ago and don’t need any more such “new Christian” experiences or “striving.” (I’m not saying striving is good; I am saying that many people use the term to avoid anything that involves facing things they don’t want to face.)

I would say our experience of these things tends to get lighter and more peaceful overall as we move farther up, but I don’t want to make it sound like anybody’s process is going to be totally comparable to anybody else’s. It seems to me that everybody’s stuff is so different that, while the basic principles are universal, the practical expression is never quite the same.

This is often a hard reality to consider though, that we are in a lifetime journey up a spiral staircase rather than an instant arrival at having it all together. It is true that the work was finished at the cross and that we are considered perfect in that greater, eternal realm outside time and space. Still, there is also the practical side of things that, within time and space, we are walking out our redemption day by day, receiving grace and partnering with it to bring what has already been won for us into this realm. Sorry, it’s still a spiral.

A common objection sounds like, “If God is really God and he wants me healed, why can’t he just bypass all the parts and issues and spiral staircases and whatever else, and just fix everything instantly, right now in response to my cry for him to rescue me?” I agree that the suffering I witness some people living in, even in the midst of their process of healing and of earnestly crying out to God for help, completely SUCKS ASS. At the same time, we need to realize that God is not only all powerful and all loving, but that he has perfect integrity.

This means that he will not, no matter what, violate his own commitments and principles of righteousness. He has given us free will and has given us an environment of freedom to operate in where he refuses to control us or to control our outcome. This requires that we humans have the ability to dig ourselves and those who follow us into some deep and intricate pits. For God to remain integrous, he cannot just violate our freedom and our process, take away the sovereignty he has given us and the parts of our hearts which have come into agreement with the enemy, and force us 100 levels up the spiral at once. If he were to do that, he wouldn’t be who he is anymore, but would be an almighty being with the character of the Devil, which would actually be a lot scarier than the prospect of needing to walk through a process.

So, instead of bypassing all the steps we have created within us (or inherited, or have allowed others to create in us during times of vulnerability,) what I’ve been shown and what I believe is that he empowers us to move up the spiral faster than humanly possible, but still at the pace we and the relevant, deeper parts of our hearts choose, to break through barriers humanly impassable. He does this with promises to somehow make it all work out for the good, that somehow the suffering of this present time will not be considered worthy to be compared with the glory that will be revealed in us (Romans 8:18).

I could testify to you of someone just recently who, after two quick prayer times of healing in the womb, has been brought out of a place of near suicide into a stable place of peace and joy with no such suicidal ideations. At the same time, I could mention those in the roughest processes who I have prayed with over and over with barely perceptible if any known results, and I could probably tell you about every level in between.  Some people’s experiences of healing sound like the greatest news ever to come straight out of heaven’s publicity department, yet, still, some other people’s current experience in their process… really sucks… (I won’t literally say that twice in the same post).

I don’t believe God is holding anything back from the second group that he gave to the first, but I’m convinced they are merely on a different place in their spiral, as well as being on a different spiral altogether, as everybody is on a very different journey.

I’ll leave you with this: If God would throw away his integrity, violate our sovereignty over our own process, and just make everything instantly better because we want everything to be better, one would think he would do that for the entire world, and that if such a thing were possible, we would be living in an instant utopia rather than co-laboring to bring redemption to creation one step at a time as we actually are.

On second thought, if God were to throw away his integrity like that, I’m not sure he would any longer be a person interested in making the world any better. I’m pretty sure that would lead to an actual cosmic proportioned sick joke much worse than what the enemy is able to play on us for the limited period of time that he currently is.


Inviting Jesus to Work in Your Inner-World



In recent times I’ve become more aware of needs for further healing in my own life. Working with lots of other people’s stuff can be a mirror, and Holy Spirit has gotten some things through to me. Healing more fragments has been a big aspect of my recent process.

When I first started working with fragments, my experiences were more dramatic. Internal and even external shifts were obvious. Spiritual experiences and sensations were sometimes overwhelming. Those seemed to be bigger or more significant fractured parts than what I’m able to dig up now. Today, all my experiences of this sort of thing are very subtle. Often, the results in my life are nearly imperceptible. The remaining fragments seem to be so much smaller than the ones I was getting healed originally. I’m led to continue inviting the Lord to heal my fragments though, with a pretty clear promise that it will greatly open up certain areas of my spiritual life that I long to have opened most.

Many times, I tend to go right after the source of the problem when I pray with someone. This often looks like going straight to a felt or discerned wound or fractured part, and healing it directly or inviting the Lord into that place to begin working. I love seeing the evidence of change after clearly getting in touch with an issue and then getting it resolved so that only peace remains where there had been significant turmoil before. I love seeing the fruit of such ministry in a testable way rather than just going “by faith” (which is a legitimate way to operate, though for some it can actually be more like wishful thinking).

Today though, I have a hard time going after my own stuff so directly since I’ve done so much of it in the past and seem to have traced down and resolved just about all the noticeable, painful stuff I could consciously get in touch with.

I’m still aware of various “themes” or life-issues I could use lots of progress on, but I don’t tend to feel any strongly wounded emotions connected to them, nor do I find individual parts carrying many felt pains. I just know that there must be something that needs more healing, and other trustworthy people have discerned that I need to continue receiving this sort of healing as well.

It isn’t that I don’t have any significant wounds, but maybe the wounds remaining are made up of so many subtle components contributing to the larger issue that they are very difficult to track down.

What I’m finding more effective for me these days, rather than feeling the problems and starting from there, is to just establish a connection with the Lord and then to unleash him into my inner world, observing where he goes and what he does. He seems to find all sorts of parts and strongholds that I would never expect, and which are usually too subtle for me to even become aware of in any other way.

I’m going to share a recent example of how this has looked for me in practice, with a few teaching moments along the way for those who would like to try it themselves:


I used an image of a campfire as a starting point, and invited Jesus to join me there. As a Jesus looking figure showed up in my imagination, I used my intention to look into his eyes, tuning into my feelings and senses to see what kind of discernment I would get of his nature as reflected in his eyes, whether it was the true, all good Jesus or not.

I began to have a sense of all good things, affectionate things, joyful things, as I used my intention to look into the eyes, and so I was assured that this was the real Jesus. I do tend to check rather than assume, because I only want the real Jesus ministering to the most vulnerable parts of me, not just anybody who may get away with showing up sometimes and looking like a bearded guy in a robe.

Another way you can check if it’s the real Jesus is by observing the nature and fruit of what he does. Is it life giving, effective, and comforting, or is it abusive and reinforcing of woundedness? In this case, I let him lead and minister to me, releasing affection and other kinds of input to me as an adult for a while.

After a bit, I invited him to move in my inner world (observed through my imagination), to see if there was anything he wanted to heal. He immediately went to a number of young “me’s” (fragments of me) and began healing them up. As they were healed and moved on to a better location than where they had been found, apparently beamed up into heaven, he then went over to a large bubble and began pulling on something deep within the bubble.

It turned out that this was a fragment of me stuck in the womb that he was pulling on. This little guy seemed to like where he was, just chilling in a sac of amniotic fluid, but he was also carrying bondage the Lord wanted to remove. Jesus was pulling him to the surface with fervor, and even shouting into the bubble, expressing urgency about his need for healing. The “me” inside the amniotic fluid was stirred into action and began to allow Jesus to heal him. He was taken out of the bubble, birthed into the world, and then brought to a better place to continue processing. My job, during all this, was just to observe and let Jesus do all the work.

He began changing the atmosphere of this location within my inner self, opening the heavens over it to allow sunlight, warmth, and all kinds of good things to fill it. He even seemed to set various objects up for the sake of reflecting or refracting light. He then began to pull on some kind of rope, bringing a large group of parts up to the surface of this area from underground. I heard the word “abandonment” associated with them, and they seemed to be a bunch of parts created through wounds of abandonment. I could actually feel the emotions of abandonment they were carrying.

As Jesus healed them all, he led them into a single-file line and they began walking towards him. Right at his feet, they seemed to drop into the ground and to become integrated into me, and I felt a small shift taking place within as they did so.

Next, Jesus continued landscaping, arranging certain sections of land for the purpose of growing or containing certain plantings/fruit, and he created a channel in between the plots of land. He invited a large yellow ball of light, reminiscent of a star or of the sun into this place, and directed it to begin rolling down this channel and towards a dark pit. As the huge ball of light fell into the pit, Jesus brought in a second sun-like ball of light and allowed it to roll into the pit as well. The two “suns” began to rotate around each other inside this pit, creating a luminous effect. (Revelation refers to certain heavenly beings as “stars.” I wonder if these are a high order of angels?)

This pit, now lit up by two suns working in synergy, was filled with prisons that contained small fragments. Jesus removed all the prison bars and let them out, healing them and taking them to a better place to continue receiving help. Next, at the bottom of the prison, were found a group of reptiles crawling around on the floor, and Jesus began to sit with them, allowing them to crawl all over him, letting them get to know him.

I believe that these “reptiles” were actually what are known in some circles (HeartSync circles for instance) as “sub-cortical parts.” This is where some kind of trauma happens as such an early stage of development that parts were formed even before higher centers of the brain came online. Many animal type parts are found who represent fractures at the level of the “primitive brain” or brainstem, possibly from earlier stages in the womb. Their state is much like that of an animal, motivated by primitive drives without higher levels of function or comprehension. Seeds can also be found, representing the earliest stages of womb life or even pre-conception parts of the spirit.

As Jesus hung out with these reptiles, they soon turned into babies, and as I left him with them and checked back in a few minutes later, they had grown to young children. Jesus had been nurturing them and growing them up to maturity quickly. He dispatched the enemy, taught them a few lessons, and then led them out of the pit/prison to continue their healing and processing.

This is just one of many possibilities of what inviting Jesus to work in your inner world may end up looking like. So many different locations, structures, parts, strongholds, giftings, etc. can be found and ministered to as we just let him loose to dig up and heal whatever he chooses to.

It helps if you have some level of understanding and comfort with things in this realm, so that it doesn’t seem too “weird” and unbelievable to you. I receive many impressions visually, but if you don’t, that doesn’t mean you can’t do this. You could sense what is happening through hearing, or feeling, or knowing, or however you perceive things. You could maybe just invite him to move within you in these kinds of ways by faith and allow him to do it whether you have any specific sense of what he is doing or not. There are many things in the above example that I don’t totally understand or know all the details of, but my lack of full understanding doesn’t stop the Lord from moving.

Healing Spirit, Soul, & Body (plus a lil’ freaky stuff)


One woman had come out of a criminal background not many years earlier and was asking for prayer. She was walking with the Lord now but still carrying pain from her old life. Right before she could begin to share what she wanted help with, she began to be tormented by pressure and pain around her head.

I saw this as a likely spiritual attack against her and took authority over it. The pain didn’t leave but moved to a different area in her head. This got my attention since I’ve seen it numerous times. It is a typical sign of spiritual resistance from the demonic, where pain will move to different parts of the body when prayed against.

I continued commanding the source of this pain to leave. It would just move around to different parts of her head no matter what I did. The pain would even move around her head to face me as I walked a circle around her. The spiritual source behind this must have had rights of some kind to be there, or it would never have been able to resist authority in Christ like that.

Usually, I tend to be more focused on the person and their needs than on dueling back and forth with a spirit like this, but that day, I was going after the thing. I didn’t like how it was interfering with her trying to get help, and I wanted to make it clear that this wouldn’t be allowed. I asked the Lord to show me what rights it had to resist so stubbornly.

I first had a sense of a time when she had been much younger, had been left alone by loved ones, and feeling very abandoned. I asked her about this, and she told me that she wasn’t aware of such an experience from her very young years.

However, the issue she wanted help with was an issue of feeling abandoned by people and by God more recently, when all her drug and crime buddies had been killed or sent to prison. This had taken place some years ago, not long before she had recommitted her life to Christ.

She had trusted God to take care of her, had prayed for his protection for her and her friends, but obviously hadn’t been following him fully. She felt a lot of pain and anger at the Lord for the devastation that had happened to all her friends’ lives, and how she was left lonely even when she had trusted in his protection.

Interesting interpretation of events, right? Nevertheless, it was how she felt. I wonder if there really was an earlier episode of severe abandonment which colored her perspective to focus on the loss rather than to focus on how, after praying for protection, she survived a lifestyle that none of her friends had, and then was delivered from it.

I had her confess her anger at God as sin and trust him to take it from her based on the promise that Jesus is “the Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world” (John 1:29). She did so, and he took the anger out of her immediately along with her feelings of abandonment.

Sometimes (like this time), various painful emotions will leave along with the anger without even needing to be addressed. In other instances, you will need to specifically take the other emotions to the cross. He removes them completely either way. This is what he died for.

I once more commanded the spirit causing the head pains to leave, and the pain only moved around again without leaving. Apparently, the spirit still had some kind of “right” to be there.

I tried an old approach from back in the days when I had learned more deliverance-based work. I put the spirit on trial before the throne of God (by a simple declaration of faith that I was doing so) and commanded it to confess what right it still had to be present. I instructed the woman to listen for whatever thoughts came to her mind and to simply tell me the first thing that popped into her head as I “interrogated” the spirit. The answer she got was “pity.”

It was true. She had become full of self-pity over that situation we had just prayed about. She had always been talking about it to whomever would listen. I had her repent for the self-pity and trust the Lord to remove the grief/sorrow from her heart based on his promise in Isaiah 53 that he bore our griefs and carried our sorrows. The sorrow was immediately lifted from her along with the pain which had been manifesting in her head. There would be no more “smart headache” to contend with as we continued.

In only trying to get rid of a hindrance to doing ministry, we had done quite a bit of the ministry already. So far we had dealt with her anger at God over the tragedy of losing her friends to death and prison, along with her feelings of abandonment. She had come out of agreement with self-pity and had been freed from the grief she had carried over the years.

She shared that she still felt “shattered” inside though, and had felt that way ever since the tragedies in her friends’ lives took place. I asked the Lord to show me the condition of her human spirit so that I could pray healing over that area.

I saw her spirit poured out on the ground like water. It was not only shattered but shattered into so many little bits that it was now a liquid. This liquid spirit was lying face down, prostrate on the ground in brokenness. I was led to speak to her spirit and call it back together, to call it back into an upright position, into a solid form again. The woman began to exclaim, “I feel like I just found myself! I feel solid inside again after so many years!”

Not only was it important to minister to the issues of the soul related to this tragedy (anger, abandonment, grief, and self-pity), but it was important to heal her spirit too.

This may all sound like shockingly and unbelievably quick and easy solutions to such serious pains. It is true, though, and is even repeatable. The gospel is that good. The work of the cross is that real and effective for even the deepest areas of our being.

Self-pity will get us feeling sorry for ourselves and making our issues out to be bigger than God, as if they are so special they could only ever be helped by some long and difficult process. We may have settled into hopelessness, choosing to believe that freedom is impossible, maybe even getting much of our identity from our problems. We become trapped in a victim mentality with no awareness of our authority in Christ and no hope or faith.

Our issues are not bigger than God. They are less than a speck of dust to him. There are so many things which can easily and quickly be healed or removed, even many things which seem overwhelming and life-defining at the time.

This has been an excerpt from a soon to be released book, “Divine Healing for Spirit, Soul, & Body,” and has been edited by the mysterious literary figure known as “Anonymous Moth.”

In no way is this story meant to discredit those who are in a more complex healing process, who legitimately need more time to resolve the various twists and turns they must navigate as they learn to allow the Lord to heal many issues. The broad point I’ve made here is not that our lives should always be simple and easy or else we’re wrong (how ridiculous), but that when one’s process is simple or complex, major hurts and strongholds can be miraculously resolved much faster than we would ever tend to think.

Even when someone’s healing process is more complicated, we can still trust the Lord to do things far beyond what any human method could accomplish. We don’t give up on the promises and faithfulness of God when it appears to not be getting results right away, but we find the loophole, the reason for the hold-up, and we apply God’s faithfulness and some more of his promises to resolving that, and then we do see the results. This lesson was demonstrated in the healing account above in several places, despite how I expect some in rougher, more frustrating processes to take this all the opposite way at first. My heart goes out to them and I include this qualification/explanation for their sake.

The book, written by Diane Moyer and myself,  goes deep into exploring different aspects of miraculous healing for various parts of our being, and how they all interrelate. Beyond that, many foundational “why” questions about the subject are answered from our personal revelations and experiences, our own journeys are shared, how God has revealed his heart to us over the years in very different ways, as well as how he has freed us from many religious mentalities that typically sabotage healing.

If you liked “Broken to Whole,” this one speaks to some of the same basic subjects such as parts and Core Identities, but goes more broad into other areas of divine healing, laying a foundation of understanding and revelation of the Lord’s heart and ways. This is important for effectively receiving healing, as well as for ministering at this level.

Sources of HeartSync info

HeartSync is a ministry that focuses on connecting various parts of the human heart with God and with each other. I consider their materials cutting edge and as good as anything out there gets. Here are a few sites that share some in-depth information which is very relevant for deeper healing of many kinds:

Part One: “HeartSync” — a psycho-spiritual treatment for trauma and attachment disorders.

New Book Out

You may have wondered why the posts dropped off. I’ve been working on a few books.

This first one, Broken to Whole: Inner Healing for the Fragmented Soul, was a group project with five other authors, each sharing their unique revelations and experiences on the subject of healing fractured parts. I’ve included more in-depth material and many real-life examples in the book than in all these posts combined. It has been selling well and going to some interesting places. If you are interested in learning more about the subject, I recommend purchasing it.

As much as I like to keep things simple and streamlined, I’ve gone to the trouble of putting together a real website for the sake of getting this info out. It isn’t anything super-impressive, but at least it comes across a bit more serious than an anonymous blog.

Here’s a link to my new site, where I’m in the process of transferring blog content over to and adding new articles and such as well. You will find a link to buy the book there too (second link goes straight to the book page).



Another book “Divine Healing for Spirit, Soul, and Body” is on its way soon. This one is a project with one other author, Diane Moyer, goes deep into the heart behind healing, how the Lord has revealed his heart to us, and how physical, emotional, and spiritual healing are intertwined.

It provides answers to big questions such as why many struggle to obtain physical, spiritual, and emotional healing, and includes many real-life stories of the miraculous on all these levels. It doesn’t go as deep into parts ministry as the other book, but covers a more broad array of subjects such as healing the human spirit, synchronizing core identities, generational cleansing, etc., while focusing on heart rather than technique. It promises to help many find freedom and understanding in areas which are commonly clouded, to help many build a foundation to go deep in each of the many aspects of healing discussed.

A Glimpse Into the Afterlife: Plundering the Gates of Hell, Freeing Captives in this World and That



Before I was scheduled to pray for a woman, I was shown to go after freeing her from disembodied human spirits which had been passed down her generational line.

I’m talking about dead people. People who have passed on and who were still spiritually bound. They are sometimes caught in captivity by the demonic and used to oppress their own descendants (or others). I’ve run into this consistently, and have seen real fruit from freeing people from such things (including in my own life).

Here is a link to Dave Nevins’ quick explanation of this subject if it is a new one to you.

The enemy has no power other than what we give him, so what better way to establish his foothold in people than to implant the spirits of his captives within them. This seems to be a very common strategy which he uses to fortify his grip on people and on geographic locations.

I’ve found that these human spirits infect their host with the spiritual bondages, physical and emotional issues they themselves carry. Sometimes they even intentionally work against the person, either out of their personal wounding and malice or on a direct assignment from the enemy.

Some are just lost or operating with a more neutral type of agenda, looking to get a need met or not knowing where else to go. Freeing someone from disembodied human spirits not only tends to clear them from whatever problems were being caused by their presence, but can lead to these spirits meeting the Lord, finding redemption, healing, and deliverance, moving on into glory.

I was shown a “boss” human spirit, a large and broad man, appearing dark skinned, who was in charge of the captivity of a number of other human spirits. He himself was under the authority of the enemy. I was led to try to reach him, to set him and those under his authority free, which would free the woman up from the bondages they were carrying. When I told her about the “boss” (without sharing identifying characteristics), she said that she had seen him standing at the foot of her bed the night before. She described him as a very large, scary man with somewhat dark colored skin.

One exciting aspect of this prayer time, besides the opportunity to explore an area few have shared much detail about publicly, was the fact that the woman I was praying for is incredibly spiritually sensitive. She sees visions like movies playing in front of her in HD clarity, and has a very strong sense of when the Lord is confirming the truth of this or that revelation. She had little to no grid for this subject, and so this experience was shaping up to be a great learning experience for the both of us.


Meeting “Boss Man.”

I called for this boss spirit within her to come to attention, sharing that I wanted to free him as well as his host from all the torment and bondage they were living in. I invited the Boss Man to tell me his story or to share anything he wanted to share. The woman I was praying for could see him, and but could tell that he wasn’t too happy with me or willing to talk. His lips were sealed tight, other than apparently the words, “Let’s tango.”

I used a tool I’ve found effective in working with fractured parts, which I’ve also found to be effective with disembodied human spirits. (People are people, alive, dead, or fractured, they can be healed and freed in the same ways.) I bound and restrained the demonic from manipulating or controlling the man, and asked him if he was willing to be freed from it. When he said yes, I simply commanded all the demonic to leave him and never return. He softened up quite a bit after that quick prayer.

As the Boss Man began to share, it turned out that he was in charge of a number of other human spirits within this woman, and that he reported to the “Black One.” He was unwilling to break his agreement with the “Black One,” saying that the other spirits needed it “especially the little one.” I questioned him about what the Black One did for them, trying to find out what need was being met so that I could share how the Lord could do a better job of meeting those needs.

Did the Black One offer some kind of protection? Boss Man said no.  He said that the Black One didn’t do a whole lot for any of them. I thought maybe the only reason Boss Man was unwilling to break agreement would be a fear of punishment, for himself and for the ones under his authority.

I declared that I was binding up the “Black One” in chains, completely immobilizing him so that he could do no harm, dragging him into the room before the Boss Man, and putting him down on the floor. Boss Man said that he could now see the “Black One” lying in front of him bound. It turned out as I suspected, that this Black One was a huge demon.

I shared that the human spirits didn’t have anything to worry about from this guy. I shared that Jesus could meet all his needs and the needs of the other spirits, could heal and free them all, including the little one he had spoken of. Boss Man replied, “Who is this Jesus?”

I declared by faith that I was putting a movie in front of the Boss Man, which would show who Jesus is. Boss watched the movie and then said he was “unmoved.” I told him that Jesus was the one who gave me authority to put the Black One in chains. Boss was unimpressed, saying that he’d seen it done before.

I asked him who he had seen put the Black One in chains before? Boss said, “the Red One.” I wondered if there had been some encounter with an angel, or maybe with a praying Christian or something like that. I asked Boss if “the Red One” was a good guy or a bad guy. Boss shared that he was “very mean and vicious.” (That sounded like a bad guy to me.)

I declared that I was now binding the “Red One” in chains, completely immobilizing him so that he could do no harm, and dragging him into the room, putting him down on the floor next to “Black One” at Boss’ feet. It turned out that Red One was an even bigger, nastier demon than Black One, but was now rendered powerless just the same.

I asked Boss if he could see the Red One next to Black One now, and he said “Yes,” exclaiming, “I believe!” He became willing to meet this Jesus I had spoken of.

Before inviting Jesus in, just as when working with fractured parts, I’ve found it necessary to get the human spirits to break all agreements with other spirits who have been in the Lord’s place in their lives. Otherwise, Jesus refuses to override the person’s will and they tend to encounter evil counterfeits rather than the true Jesus. I asked Boss if he’d been involved in the occult or any religions, trying to discern whether he would have picked up any bad “spirit guides.”

Boss said that no, he hadn’t been involved in any religions or spiritual practices, but that he did have an agreement with Death. He described Death as being a dark figure whose face was hidden under a brown hood. I offered to put that guy in chains too, to bring him in and seat him next to the other two, just to show that he had nothing to worry about from breaking agreement.

Boss replied, “NO! DON’T DO THAT!” He seemed to be terrified at the idea of bringing the brown hooded one into the room, and the woman I was praying for could feel his overwhelming terror herself. She nearly wanted to stop the session because the emotions she was feeling from this man were so extreme now.

Boss man said the chains wouldn’t be necessary, that he would simply break his agreement with Death. I got his permission to have Death, Black One, Red One, and all other bad spirits totally removed, along with the fear he was feeling. As I was commanding all that to go, the woman felt the fear leave and the wild emotions settle down.

When we invited Jesus to come in and reveal himself, the woman heard Boss exclaim, “My Lord!” and “I’ve come home!” I asked Boss to examine this Jesus, to tell us what he saw, especially in his eyes. I was making sure that this was not a counterfeit, that it truly had love in the eyes. Boss described this Jesus as “the embodiment of compassion, Life itself, Love, Warmth, a cool drink of water.” I said that sounds like the real Jesus! (and come to think of it, I guess it turns out you can get a glass of ice water in hell if you know who to ask…)

Jesus related to the Boss a bit, and then opened four cast-iron doors behind him. Out of three of those doors came numerous human spirits, some with happy grins, others with tears of joy, rushing out to meet Jesus, finding healing and freedom. Behind the fourth door was an animal like creature, which Jesus healed, turning it back into the form of a child.

Jesus brought the child to the woman, integrated it into her. He led the group of human spirits, Boss included, away to a better place out of captivity and outside the living woman.

This woman described herself as “light as a feather and glowing” after all this was done. She commented that she couldn’t believe how light she felt, how heavy all those human spirits must have been.