“Liz’s” Core Identities, An Excerpt from “Divine Healing for Spirit, Soul & Body”

The following is a story of a friend receiving healing for their core identities (Function, Guardian, Emotion). It’s taken from the book I just released in collaboration with Diane Moyer.

“Liz” was a missionary with whom I (Matt) had prayed numerous times before. She had walked through deliverance, emotional healing in memories, healing for the human spirit, generational cleansing, healing and integration of fractured parts, and even more. She found great breakthrough in each of those areas. Still, she found herself struggling in close relationships.

She called me after she had just devastated her closest friend and ministry partner with deeply cutting words. She felt that she had done permanent damage to this person’s heart and their friendship. I had only recently begun ministering to Core Identities before she called, and we would need to do “first things last.” Ideally, her Core would have been healed and synchronized very early in her process, rather than after having worked on everything else.

I explained the Core Identities to her and asked her to try getting a sense of who her Guardian was. Her Guardian appeared in her imagination as a ninja who was hidden in the shadows. Liz could see only her eyes, that they were very cold and hard. There was a sense that she was carrying a sharp sword.

I bound and restrained the demonic from manipulating or controlling this Guardian, and Liz saw her eyes soften. When I got her permission to get rid of the demons and commanded them to go, Ms. Ninja softened up further, but she would still be unusually tough to work with. I asked her, “Would you share with us whatever is on your heart, anything you’d like us to know? You must be doing an important job for Liz. Would you like to share about that?”

Liz suddenly understood how her Guardian’s sword represented bitter and cutting words, how she was a master at using words to wound people. Her Guardian Identity had been the one behind wounding her closest friend recently. She had a history of hurting loved ones, including her children, and her words had been a key part in completely destroying those relationships.

Guardian answered my question about what job she performed for Liz: “I protect her. Without me, she’d be dead! Everyone takes advantage of her. Her heart is too loving, and she only sees the good in people. So many only take and take and take, and they drain her dry. That’s all they’re there for. I see right through their BS even when she doesn’t. She needs me to put a stop to that, or they would bury her!”

I tried to comfort her by saying that I wasn’t there to take her job away. Guardian immediately replied with a brashly toned, “Ha! I wouldn’t let you!”

I answered, “Well, Jesus isn’t here to take your job away.” I explained how the Lord created her to be a Guardian, how he was going to empower her to be a better Guardian, that he cared about Liz and didn’t want her to go unguarded.

Guardian replied back, “God hasn’t protected her worth a damn; I’ve had to do it all myself! She’s prayed to Jesus, done all that church stuff, and none of it did any good. She still got taken advantage of by the same kinds of people the whole time! They abused her, took everything from her, and would have killed her if it wasn’t for me protecting her!”

Liz had already told me her story about how she’d been molested as a young girl in church, had been raped, beaten, verbally and emotionally abused, and financially taken advantage of by various men and authority figures throughout her life. I shared with Guardian that I knew that she had been through some horrible things and had needed protection.

Guardian answered, “Where was Jesus? He didn’t do anything! He wasn’t being a father to her during any of that!”

I replied, “I bet he was a father to her in all the areas you let him be.” Trying not to be too harsh, I began to share about how the Lord gave her no shame, how she was only doing what she knew to do, using the tools that she knew how to use only for the sake of protecting Liz, but that the Lord had a better way if she would let him into her life, one that didn’t have so many destructive consequences to herself and her close relationships.

Guardian was now crying, “I’m in the way! I’m the one who has kept God out and who has destroyed her relationship with her children!” She really wanted to protect Liz, but her efforts had been counterproductive. I had been talking to her a bit earlier about letting Jesus reveal himself to her and minister to her, and she now wanted to give that a try. She was feeling horrible about how she had damaged Liz’s relationships, how her control had kept the Lord from helping her in so many situations. I prayed for Jesus to reveal himself to her.

As Jesus appeared before her, she began to cry and to exclaim things like, “He is so full of joy!” “He laughs so much!” “He is soo excited about me!” “His laugh is so loud and deep and full of life!” It was obvious that Jesus’ expression and relational style had melted her heart the moment she saw him.

Because I’ve seen some convincing deceptions until the eyes of “Jesus” were checked, I asked her to look in his eyes to make sure she saw love there (though this was already kinda obviously the real thing). She was immediately overwhelmed with joy at the amount of love for her that she could see in his eyes. She sang out from a place of deep emotion, “This is what I’ve needed all along! This is what Liz has needed all along! This has to be Jesus! You can’t fake that shit!” Guardian received Jesus as her Lord and Savior for the first time, let him heal her, and he did a transforming work in her very quickly.

Once Guardian seemed to be healed up, I asked her, “What about Emotion?” She told me that Emotion was a mess, that she had been drowning in pain and wanting to die, getting her head above the water for just a second here and there but falling right back into depression and turmoil.

“Can I talk to her?” I asked. As I questioned Emotion, I discovered that she already knew the Lord. I made sure it was the real Jesus by asking her how he treated her, if he was loving, if he was powerful, and if she could see his eyes. I had to make sure because so many parts and Core Identities think they know Jesus, but it turns out to be a mean, cold, or powerless religious spirit instead.

The Jesus of religion may look perfect in every way other than his eyes (which he often conceals), may be able to quote scripture or give hopeful promises, but will not be able to back up his words with freeing and healing power. I was glad to find out that Liz’s Emotion Identity knew the real, loving, and powerful Jesus.

As I asked Emotion to share what she was going through, and as I guided her through handing various problems over to the Lord, her condition was improving. If I remember correctly, there were major issues of shame and low self-esteem that Jesus needed to speak into and remove from her.

When it came time to address the multitude of deeper pains in her heart, she made a request. In the past, the Lord had shown her how he could simply take out her old battered and bruised heart, giving her a new perfect one in its place. She wanted this rather than a process of dealing with one emotional issue at a time. We asked him to do it. Jesus took out her old heart and put it in his chest while taking his own heart out and giving it to her, placing that one into her chest. He proclaimed over her, “All new!”

Emotion was doing great. Her pain, suicidal ideations, shame, and low self-esteem had all been removed.

Next, I asked about Function. Emotion said that Function was angry: “She’s been doing all the right things for so long, and none of it worked!” I responded by asking if I could talk to her.

Talking to Function, she turned out to be a “good Christian” rule-keeper who didn’t know Jesus personally. All her life she had tried so hard to do everything right. She tried to appease authority figures and to be who she was told to be, yet remained in all sorts of bondage. I tried to explain to her that it doesn’t work like that. You can’t just perform your way into God’s blessing. It takes the cross. It takes the free gift of grace.

“The whole system is bondage!” she began to realize, speaking about the performance pressures and requirements of her “Christian” upbringing. She had witnessed the way that the Lord healed the other two identities and was starting to understand how she never knew how to operate out of a relationship with God. “I suppose I need to get saved too?” she asked. (I had literally led Guardian in a “sinner’s prayer,” inviting Jesus into her heart during my conversation with her, and now Function was recognizing her need for the same thing.)

Jesus came to her upon our invitation, and she received him as Savior. He took away the anger and all the lies, the false belief systems she had lived under. He removed the performance, the self-righteousness, the spiritual pride, and other strongholds as they were identified and as she gave him permission.

I asked the three identities how they felt about each other and if they were up for being synchronized. Now that they had been healed, they had no trouble getting along and were glad to join as a team. This had never been possible before. With one good religious Christian identity, one tormented true believer, and one rebel ninja hiding in the shadows, these identities had not been very compatible up to this point. Liz saw them become like three close sisters, all huddled in a tight knit circle and sharing secrets.

Next, we looked for Original Self, an identity who often shows up after the previous three have been synchronized and who is closest to the human spirit. Liz saw her as an infant who was made out of translucent light, very pure. This part of her had stopped developing at about the womb stage when the others were separated and began playing the major roles in her life. Her Original Self only needed to be grown to maturity (instantly, as a miraculous work) and then synchronized in with the rest of the group.

After this, Liz found her close relationships greatly improving, especially with the ministry partner whom she had so severely wounded. From her perspective, it seemed like the other people just suddenly started loving her and treating her a lot better for no apparent reason. My guess is that, more likely, as she was healed and became easier to live with, the issues of those close to her weren’t triggered as often, and they were able to more consistently express the love they already had.


A Gospel Bigger Than We Thought (Included from earlier in the book)

“Salvation” in the New Testament is translated from the Greek word “sozo,” meaning healing, deliverance, and rescue. There are places “sozo” is used where it couldn’t possibly mean anything but immediate physical healing or immediate deliverance from oppression.

This “salvation” isn’t just something for the afterlife you get in a “sinner’s prayer,” but it is healing for every part of us. The “salvation” paid for on the cross is freedom from every oppression and every kind of corruption of sin. This applies to our spirits, to our souls, and to our bodies just the same.

This “so great a salvation” speaks of the transformation of every element of our being and lives. “Salvation” and “sanctification” are separated only in the dry halls of speculative theological study. In real life, they are the same experience. This is offered to us freely, now, by the grace of God. “Today is the day of sozo/salvation,” as Paul said.

We are all growing in this experience of salvation. On God’s side it has all been freely given to us, but on our side, we are all still receiving it at our own pace. We experience more as we bring more areas of ourselves to him and receive his “sozo,” his healing and rescue, in each of those areas.

I’ve tried many things in attempts to experience a more dynamic walk with God. What often results in the most progress has been opening up my brokenness, weaknesses, and areas of twisted character before the Lord, allowing him to work in those places. He is not looking for some grand effort or performance from us, but only for genuine access to our hearts. He just wants us to get real with him.

Religion has offered us shame and condemnation, constantly yet ineffectively trying to fix us, demanding that we change to appease a hard driving and perfectionistic image of God. The true God really does want to be let close to our brokenness, not to point a finger and tell us to fix it ourselves (which we can’t even do) but to accept us in that place unconditionally. He wants to reveal his love and heal us there.

The truth is that the gospel is so much more than we’ve been told. The message of the cross was never meant to be an introduction to the religion of Christianity. It was never intended to be about, “You’re saved by grace, but now you need to measure up.” We’ve come up with so many wacky theologies based upon a lack of spiritual experience. We’ve so often made God into a monster he never was and made our gospel into an inoculation against the real thing.

Healing isn’t something God does here and there in his spare time, but it is simply who he is. God is love, and love always heals. This never changes and never wavers. Jesus, the perfect representation of God, showed us exactly who the Father is when he spent his time going around healing all who would receive. His very name, “Yeshua,” means “Jehovah heals/delivers.”


The Book this excerpt is from, Divine Healing for Spirit, Soul, & Body, can be purchased here:



Recovering Original Self & The Human Spirit


Our “Original Self” is an identity, a most core part of ourselves who is very pure and true to our original design. For most people though, it is hidden underneath multiple layers of protective mechanisms and other, more “practical” facets of self.

Many in prayer ministry settings have reported finding a child hidden within who was made out of translucent light, and that when this child was recovered and rapidly grown to adulthood, it showed up as the most pure-hearted and godly version of themselves they could never have imagined being.

Others who have recovered and explored their Original Self have spoken of an identity who was closest to their divine purpose and who had the most access to spiritual experiences, being closest to their human spirit. Being such a valued part of ourselves though, our Original Self identity is typically surrounded by “bodyguards,” so to speak, to protect it from damage in the outside world.

In the most simple situation, there are at least going to be the three facets of what many people think of as their “Core” or everyday persona; the Functional Self, the Guardian Self, and the Emotional Self standing in the way of Original Self ever seeing the light of day. Original Self was often stuffed away at an infant stage while our Guardian Self (which is designed to manage trust, safety, and protection), our Functional Self (which operates in higher competency and takes responsibility for getting necessary things done in our practical, outward lives) and our Emotional Self (which carries our trauma and connects at a deeper emotional level) all handle the burdens of life in a broken world.

For more info on these three facets of everyone’s core identity, you may check out these slides from Heartsynch, a ministry that emphasizes the subject:

In a more realistic situation (having only four aspects of self is too simple for anyone who has existed on planet earth for very long), there are going to be many fragments who have split from these identities and who play similar roles, such as protecting, carrying pain, etc.

In a more complex situation where someone has lived through regular and intense abuse at an early age, there are going to be more heavily dissociated parts such as full alter identities and more intense defense mechanisms against accessing deeper wounds. If things have been especially severe, an alter or group of alters can be living the person’s life on the surface while the true core identities are all suppressed underneath, remaining at child stages.

In some cases, facets of the core may even be missing, may be trapped in other realms. Some call these “regions of captivity.” Anna Mendez Farrel wrote a book by that name on the subject of rescuing parts of people from various spiritual realms of bondage.

The enemy sometimes takes advantage of trauma and generational sins to capture parts of us and to take them into these realms, just to make it all more difficult for us (and to further his agenda in certain ways). Just as significant aspects of us are “seated in heavenly places in Christ at the right hand of the Father” while we physically live on the earth, there is a counterfeit to this in which the enemy takes advantage of what access he can get to us and sticks parts of us in hellish places while we exist on earth. This even happens to Original Self and other facets of the core in some instances.

According to Arthur Burk, as recorded in his “Tools for Freedom” seminar series (available for purchase on his Austrian website), ritual abuse (RA) survivors “always” have their Original Self trapped in a realm called “outer darkness.” He says that perpetrators systematically and intentionally set children up to get their Original Selves trapped in this realm, because it is a realm which they can’t possibly get themselves back from without help, and because not having access to one’s Original Self makes their healing process more difficult.

Burk says that outer darkness is a place where there is no time or space, where there is unproductive, unending sorrow, as scripture speaks of “weeping and gnashing of teeth” in outer darkness. He says that people who have parts of themselves stuck there show two potential signs: unproductive weeping that never resolves, and a sense of weightlessness or free-falling coming upon them at different times. I’ve also heard one or two RA survivors share that their Original Selves had been trapped in a realm of fiery torment before being rescued.

Burk has a specific protocol for RA survivors to get portions of their human spirit recovered from places of captivity and seated on a “seat of dominion” where their spirit can be fully effective, then getting Original Self out of captivity, walking Original Self through a healing process on one’s personal timeline, and finally using the human spirit and Original Self to heal the fractured parts of the soul in a way that only the human spirit working with Original Self can. More explanation is found in the third volume of his “Tools for Freedom” series. (I haven’t used this protocol, but am just letting you know it’s out there.)

So begins our story:

A friend was scheduled to pray with me, but there was some miscommunication, and I was left out of the session. Two others joined, and the subject of the prayer time turned out to be going after a part who had been crying out for help through this woman’s dreams. They were led to rescue this part from being trapped in another dimension (a region of captivity), and it was identified as a part of her core. Missing the memo, thinking they had been covering some random and unrelated emergency, I rescheduled my prayer time with her to begin immediately after their session finished.

I was told that they had found this three-year-old part trapped in a cave and that the three-year-old was in charge of a group of older parts. The three-year-old had the maturity of an adult, was recognized as the part in the dreams crying out for help, and seemed to be carrying many facets of woundedness and ability. The older parts she was in charge of were more one-dimensional. They each seemed to carry a single issue or have a single job, and to look to the toddler for guidance.

The ministers bound up the demonic captors in this cave and got rid of them (a common step that is needed before getting parts out of captivity) then began communicating with the three-year-old and the others. These parts turned out to be fearful of leaving the cave, and the three-year-old was very angry at the adult she belonged to for not coming to help sooner. Jesus was invited to relate to and to earn the trust of the group. The adult receiving prayer also needed to apologize to the toddler for not listening to her cries and coming to help her earlier.

As the toddler and the older parts gained trust, they became willing to go with Jesus, to leave the cave they had been hiding in, and he brought them back from that dimension to the woman they had been taken from.

When I joined in, the toddler still had a bad attitude towards the adult she had been brought back to. She was identified as part of the Original Self, or maybe even the whole Original Self. From her place of captivity, she had observed the woman’s life and strongly disagreed with some of her choices. This Original Self was very strong-willed and believed that the rest of the woman had let others take advantage of her far too much. This was one angry and obstinate three-year-old, who had some really good points to make in the midst of her bad attitude and angry accusations.

I walked the woman through listening to the accusations and looking for truth in them, trying to find problems to work on resolving and trying to reconcile with this previously missing, angry part of her core. It was slow going, but we were making progress.

At one point, I began to see a dark portal behind this identity, and we sought the Lord about what opened it in the first place. She discerned that ancestors had bartered away the Original Self of the one who would fill this spot in the generational line for the sake of gaining occult power. We repented for this on behalf of the ancestors who participated in that, and we closed the portal. Also, a device was discerned on the Original Self’s head, which seemed to be related to picking up frequencies from the enemy. That left along with the portal through a simple command.

As soon as the portal and the device were removed, this Original Self immediately grew to full adulthood, became significantly taller than the body of the person who they belonged to. She instantly changed from a negatively slanted, angry part who obstinately refused to let her anger be removed, to an angelic personality who was supremely agreeable to anything that would progress her healing. Issues were quickly removed, and she was soon ready to forgive and be combined with the rest of the woman she had so harshly been accusing and rejecting before.

This identity was revealed to be the container in which the rest of the woman belonged within, and as we prayed for integration, she felt both sides of the process. She felt herself being poured into the container, and at the same time felt herself as the container into which the rest of her was being poured.

After this healing and integration of her Original Self, my friend felt six inches taller and began to set strong boundaries in many areas of her life where she had previously allowed herself to be walked over. From that point forward, she also began making more responsible decisions in various practical areas which she’d had huge difficulty with for years.

In my own life, I seemed to recover a part of my Original Self from captivity within a cave, where many preverbal (very early life, in the womb and such) fragments were trapped. I ran into this identity long after I had received ministry to many other areas, and was not particularly even looking for it. I was just allowing the Lord to dig up whatever he wanted in the area of preverbal wounds. Maybe this part of me was fractured very early.

As this recovered part of my OS was healed up and restored to the rest of me, I found my overall Original Self to become a tremendous asset in my prayer times. This part of me had become so incredibly pure and spiritually centered, that I was more confident in his ability to get answers from God than the rest of me, and had a lot of confidence that he could bring the rest of me into real encounters with the Lord on a more profound level.

Caves are not the only place parts of us can be found in captivity. It could be just about any structure, dimension or environment. There is typically a need to get the part in captivity to break agreement with enemy captors, and then to get rid of the captors. Sometimes the parts will immediately agree to be taken to a safer place. At other times, some issues may need to be worked through first, such as the fear of leaving or lack of trust, as in this case.

Recovering the Human Spirit:

Another person I prayed with not long ago had been struggling with a sense of being separated from their spiritual life, and this showed up in a variety of ways. They especially felt that their connection with God was dulled.

At one point in their process, I was shown a house of death, and this house was split into two sides. There was a light side and a dark side. On the light side was a white being of light who was surrounded by a fog of confusion and who was stuck in a seated position. On the dark side, a man was expressing emotional anguish. Some kind of barrier separated the two sides.

Discerning things further, I began to pick up on the specific issues the man on the dark side of the house was carrying, along with his characteristics. All the things I called out lined up exactly with how her husband was on his worst day, when he was in his most triggered and aggressive state. This turned out to be a fragment of the woman’s husband trapped inside this structure. On the light side of the house, I picked up that the shining being was the woman’s human spirit.

I prayed both the husband’s fragment and the human spirit through a few steps of getting cleansed and healed, and got both of them out of this house, restoring the woman’s spirit back to function with the rest of her.

From that point forward, she noticed a stronger connection with God, a sense of deep awareness of spiritual truth rather than only an intellectual agreement, a new sense of life within and an oppression of death having been removed. Her spiritual discernment was significantly increased also. She found it easier to focus and to think clearly.

There are many different scenarios where the human spirit or parts of the human spirit can be rescued from captivity. I’ve found them in an underwater place called “the depths,” trapped in locations in outer space, stuck in enemy devices of bondage and containment, or in a grave realm which I believe is “Sheol.” Getting parts of the human spirit out of Sheol often looks like dealing with enemy guards first, breaking open doors or a barrier, calling the spirit out of that realm of death into life, and cleansing the spirit from “graveclothes” of defilement and such.

Seven portions of the human spirit may be present with the person or may not be. These seven seem to be according to the seven redemptive gifts listed in Romans 12, which Arthur Burk has expounded upon in great detail. There seems to be a core or “Neshemah” of the human spirit which may also be broken into pieces and contained in places of bondage until rescued. Parts of the spirit may have been damaged and fractured even before conception on the way to the body, and need to be rescued from a heavenly realm.

For more on ministry to the human spirit, here is a good overview of many aspects by Dr. Rob Ruckert and Dan Duval:


So, the point is that the most core parts of our being, our Original Self and aspects of our human spirit, may be found in many different conditions, even in captivity outside our body. Finding, healing, and restoring these can make a significant difference in one’s life. Some people may be immediately ready to access these most prized areas of self, while others may need to work through healing more surface aspects such as woundedness and guardian defenses before their deeper aspects of self allow themselves to be accessed.

For a more in-depth description of the inner world and how ministry to different facets of self, the human spirit, and many other things can look, check out my upcoming book, Divine Healing for Spirit, Soul & Body, coauthored with Diane Moyer. It should be out in a week or less.

Also, if you are still following this blog, you may want to transition over to my current site: http://www.for-healingthenations.com.


Combining Healing and Deliverance


Models of deliverance and inner healing abound. Many models emphasize one area or the other, while some combine both. I usually emphasize the healing side, but have found deliverance to be a necessary part of doing that.

I personally can be left shaking my head at things many folks get into in the name of deliverance, but that’s another subject. Sometimes it just comes down to being caught up in fear and buying into the enemy’s common tactic to make himself seem a lot bigger and badder and more in charge of things than he really is.

After Jesus’ resurrection, he said that all authority in heaven and in earth had been delivered over to him. This left zero authority to the Devil and his any of his principalities whatsoever. Consider that. Jesus also sent his disciples out with “authority over all the power of the enemy,” leaving no wiggle room for an argument that even though they don’t have authority, they could still possibly use some kind of brute force to get away with something. All the principalities and powers have been disarmed and defeated at the cross, and placed squarely under our feet according to the clear message of the New Testament.

The only way the demonic gets any ability to do anything in our lives is when we as humans have given them that power. In a nutshell, this is why, when the enemy seems to be able to resist authority in Christ in a deliverance situation, it is never because the demons are that big and bad and such, but only because there is some agreement that needs to be broken on the person’s part. Or, maybe the one praying doesn’t believe in their authority (since it operates by faith).

Getting rid of footholds so that it becomes easy to remove stubborn critters can be as simple as repentance, generational repentance, a simple prayer of confession, etc. Other times though, the footholds are more ingrained and deeper aspects of the heart must be accessed and healed, emotional defenses must be gotten through, and fractured parts must be worked with when they are the ones maintaining the agreement.

This is one reason why I’ve found deeper healing to be, most of the time, much more helpful than only trying to do deliverance, even for the purpose of deliverance itself. Since the enemy has no power or authority other than what we give him, if he seems to have power in someone’s life, the key is to resolve the issue in the person, not to focus on fighting the demonic itself.

Sometimes though, simple deliverance makes a huge difference, and many times it helps people to some degree. Critters can often be hanging around simply because nobody has told them to go, or there may only be a need for a simple “I break agreement with —–” before they can be gotten rid of.

Here are a few examples of what mixing deliverance and inner healing has been looking like for me lately:


A man was asking for healing related to his marriage. He was being triggered to react heavily in anger in some areas, beyond his control, and he wanted that to stop.

I was first shown a squid/octopus like creature, and heard the words “mind-control.” I had a sense that this squid thing would latch onto the man’s mind and cause confusion, cause mind control. I recognized this as a typical fruit of an occult spirit, and that, for some reason, octopus spirits have had a tendency to relate to mind control.

The feedback I then got from the man was that when he would argue with his wife, he not only would get triggered into anger, but would be overcome with confusion and would pace around unable to communicate, overwhelmed at not being able to think straight.

Praying into the origin of the squid/octopus/mind control thing, I was shown occultists in the generational line inviting it in through rituals involving mind control. I had the man come out of agreement with the rituals, the mind control, and several related things I was led to have him speak out, and then I commanded the spirit to go. The man said that he then felt something lifting off of his brain and could hear sounds of suction cups coming loose, such as one would find on tentacles.

I was shown that there was more to this squid thing though, that there was actually a mechanical framework left over after the squid tissue had been removed, and I prayed to have the mechanical squid dissasembled as well. At the head of this mechanical squid, I saw a compartment with a human spirit trapped inside, and if I remember correctly, it was a sacrificial victim passed down the generational line through the occult rituals. I prayed to get the human spirit set free and encountering the Lord, then observed him moving onto heaven.

All this is subjective of course, and I look at the fruit to test things. In this case, the man found relief from confusion/mind control attacks, though he did report that the symptoms tried to afflict him once more. He took authority over it though and it immediately left. With deliverance, it is common for the enemy to re-attack and to seek to re-create symptoms of old strongholds. Many times, all that is necessary is for one to demonstrate that they believe in and will use their authority a few times, and he gets the message. He stops beating his head against the wall. There is a difference between fending off a baseless attack from the outside and dealing from one related to a spirit who still has footholds in a person’s life.

Next, I had the man trace the anger he felt with his wife back to its origin. Lo and behold, it turned out to relate to an issue of control. It turned out that parts were carrying the anger. It only took some quick, simple prayers asking the parts to come out of agreement with counterfeit/religious spirits, to get the real Jesus to them, and to let him heal them up and remove the anger and woundedness related to control.

There were a few more things we did related to other issues, but the man reported weeks later that he was no longer being triggered into anger with his wife like he had before. He was able to communicate in a totally new way with her.


Another person was feeling shut down and blah inside, was losing most motivation and going half-asleep when trying to pray, and they attributed it to (not kidding) being treated roughly by a deliverance minister a few days prior. Real issues had been called out, spirits had left, but the minister’s dogmatic mentalities and heavy handed approach left the person feeling violated and processing the trauma of the ministry session itself. If going by rote, I would have gone after the emotions associated with this, which might have been a productive way, but instead, I asked the Lord what he wanted me to pray.

I was shown this person in a bed, half asleep, and unable to wake up fully because they were being drugged. There was a spirit there which was putting them to sleep. Apparently, this was behind their blahness and literal falling asleep in prayer. I had them come out of agreement with the spirit and told it to go. The person felt it leave and said that most of their sleepiness/blahness left at that point.

Next, I was shown three jewels or gems rotating in their chest area, connected to each other. I was led to have these pulled to the surface a bit, cleansed, and activated or energized, then repositioned within their chest. The person seemed to feel an increase in energy from that as well. I have no idea what the three rotating, connected gems in a person’s chest are about.


A more far out example is from someone who has been carrying more complex things in the spiritual realm due to a lot of illuminati genetics. I tended to see lots of ufo’s, space craft, computerized and electronic equipment, and things of that nature when praying for them, along with other associated themes. Later, I heard that some with lots of experience consider an illuminati background to always be heavily tied into the UFO/alien thing, whatever those actually are. I don’t care so much what they are; I just get rid of them, and I’m pretty sure that’s all the attention they need. Effectiveness is found in rest and reliance on Jesus, not in freaking out and scouring the internet for dubiously sourced ancient alien bloodline theories.

I was first shown a planet, then a being (spiritual being I presume) dwelling there and working some sort of controls that would adjust this planet’s alignment. Light would reflect from the planet according to how it was aligned, and would be broadcast to earth, where it would interface with this person’s energy field. (Science has shown that we all have an energy field, so it isn’t just a “New Age” concept. You may check out “The Body Electric” by Robert O. Becker if you want to nerd out on that subject.)

As the light would enter this person’s electric field, it would act as if it were tendrils, searching and probing inward and trying to reach certain “buttons” that were found within the person. If a button was reached, it would set off a program within a computerized system, and a cascade of various problems would ensue. At the helm of this computerized system was a demonic winged creature, who operated a gearshift. When the demon would shift gears, the system of bondage would shift into a different program, and presumably affect the person’s body and mind in a different way. This would be very effective for the purpose of psychological warfare, for creating a sense of confusion, complexity, and hopelessness.

What I was shown powering this system of bondage were a series of orbs. The orbs had white light on the inside, but were encased in blue light. The white light was the person’s human spirit, and pieces of it had been captured and used to power this system of oppression through these orbs. I had a sense of the blue light being a counterfeit light, used to control and encase the white light, the true power source. In the New Age, blue light is really a big emphasis, and many counterfeit spirits do show up as “blue light beings.” Notice that this whole demonic structure was actually being powered by captured parts of this person’s spirit.

I was led to recover the captured parts of the spirit, to remove the blue light and to restore the white light back to the core person. I was led to then dismantle the gearshift and the various programs that would be shifted into, as well as to destroy the computer system, buttons, and all else associated with these things. Getting rid of the winged creature demon was also part of it.

This was only one small portion of the unusual devices and such that I ran across with this particular person, and I couldn’t tell you what percentage of a difference removing this in itself would have made for sure. All I can say is that I was following Holy Spirit and praying what he showed me. In this person’s case, they had already walked through many different kinds of extensive renunciations and deliverance approaches, and tend to not notice a whole lot going on as a result of such things. All we could point to after the fact was that they found themself getting in touch with a suppressed area of their emotional woundedness at a deeper level that night.

So, where others have noticed immediate and significant results from such simple deliverance as described earlier, this person only noticed more awareness of suppressed hurts after a seemingly large stronghold was removed. Besides this stronghold, I believe I had clearly been shown such things as huge alien motherships coming through portals in space to attack with armies of spacecraft at their side, NASA type space shuttle programs being operated by foreign human spirits hiding behind their cranium, conglomerate parts of sacrificed victims of occult rituals passed down the generational line and mashed together into a single identity somehow hanging around them, and all sorts of different things I haven’t seen before. So interesting, huh?

Overall, I believe I was shown in a dream that the big key for getting rid of the unusual occult/alien/illuminati strongholds and demonic activity oppressing this person’s life was not to be mainly found in going after their inherited programs and all that “weird” stuff (like what I just described), but to be found in healing their emotions. This makes sense, because so many strongholds that present themselves as so highly complex and overpowering and high ranking in Satan’s kingdom, etc., are found to only have any significant foothold at all because of a simple emotional issue such as resentment or shame, or a simple agreement with fear or something of that nature. These are often carried by a fractured part that the core personality may not be used to being in touch with, and so may be unlikely to get resolved through traditional ministry approaches. Our defeated foe is a master at creating an illusion of omnipotence, but has been shown to be 99.9999% hot air far too many times to count.

After all is said and done, with all the crazy computerized, alien mothershiip-y, portals in space-y, hogepodge parts of sacrificed victims into one being, and such things that have been used against this person to make everything seem so complex and hopeless, I’m expecting that they will find easy relief from most of it after processing some emotions and receiving healing on that level. At least, I think that’s what the Lord said.

Of course, the programs and devices have worked to hinder access to the emotions and to punish the person for trying, and so clearing some of that out can help to get easier access. Both deliverance and healing are useful. Overall, I’m encouraged and very thankful for how the Lord has helped this person move forward in their healing in so many ways beyond what I’ve shared. I’ve got lots of hope for them and respect for how they’ve made it this far.


Finally, I want to give a shout out to some deliverance based ministries that I recommend for those seeking such things:


I found freedomencounters to be the most powerful single prayer experience anybody led me through, and have found others to get similar help. Their prayer method is not a panacea. Anybody I’ve known who has done their prayer still needed more, but I highly recommend them for the real breakthroughs they consistently get:



Beverly Sherman Shepherd is a missionary who utilizes very sharp discernment in a simple approach to deliverance, and I’ve seen her approach get great results:



Aslan’s Place is a Spirit-led ministry focusing on breaking generational strongholds, and has been effective for a lot of people:



Moed Ministries also focuses on breaking generational strongholds through “bloodline cleansing” sessions, which I’ve heard good reports from:



Healing is a Spiral Staircase (for those seeking to understand a difficult journey)

I had a dream about a person in my life who I sometimes pray with, where I was shown the big-picture structure of their woundedness.

I was shown a foundation of the structure, which was revealed to be the intense emotional and physical abuse they had regularly suffered at the hands of their own mother (who was a sociopath, in my amateur opinion). I was given a sense of the nature of the abuse, how it affected them, producing great insecurity and deep problems with self-worth.

Then, I saw that there was a ceiling to the structure which presented to the outside world, how this person had learned to survive by compensating for their deep sense of self-deprecation and vulnerability through a hard-core, tough as nails survivor persona. They had this side to them that could be described well with such terms as: “all or nothing,” “black and white,” “no compromise,” “boldly confrontational,” and even sometimes, “take no prisoners.”

Between the foundation and the ceiling of this structure, the walls or support system was made up of large spiral pathways which traversed the circumference of it all, and I woke up either unable to remember what these spiral pathways meant, or not to have comprehended them in the first place. I have since gotten to pray a little bit with this person, and have seen significant breakthrough, along with hearing later about how the Lord himself met with them and brought some further healing on their own time.

More recently, I have been praying for a while with a friend who has come from an even more intense background of abuse. I see a lot of progress in this person’s life overall, and on a good day they do as well, but at other times they have struggled with feeling like the same or similar issues to what we have prayed over already, which were apparently healed for a few days or weeks, would always come back to haunt them once again. When they experience these feelings, it is more than a little discouraging and confusing. For the sake of confidentiality, I’ll call the issue “abandonment.”

There are times where one prayer session produces (apparently) complete and long-term resolution for a serious, seemingly life-defining issue. I love those instances. They are like a bit of heaven on earth to me. (They are a bit of heaven on earth, but really no more so than the healing the other person is receiving in the midst of a more difficult process.)

This person’s process involves healing for a lot of very hurting fractured parts, many carrying a similar theme of wounding from abandonment, and I’ve tried to assure them that abandonment issues surfacing after a part or a number of parts have been healed from the same or similar thing doesn’t mean that the previous ones weren’t truly healed or that any problems actually “came back.” It only means that, as I’ve seen plenty of times before, another wounded part or parts are surfacing in the person’s overall system which need the same kind of healing as the previous ones.

As more parts get healing, the difference becomes more noticeable in the person’s life overall (as it already has for this person in very significant ways), until all the parts and related issues are healed and it completely goes. If the abandonment (or any other) theme of woundedness is particularly deep, this journey is likely to feel worse before it starts permanently feeling better, as the person’s system opens up in a safe, trusting environment to their most vulnerable areas and they start to get in touch with deeper, previously hidden layers of more severe pain, leading to the most significant experiences of permanent healing as a result of letting the Lord minister to the places which had been so walled off before.

The good news is that, unlike simple deliverance of a surface level stronghold, when such deep healing is accomplished, it becomes impossible for the issue to ever return. For the problem to ever come back, the person would need to become a child again, at the level of when they were originally wounded, and go through exactly the same things all over again, not as the adult they have become with a strong psyche, strong coping skills, and a strong relationship with God, but as that defenseless, vulnerable child who they never again will be after receiving healing. Where people are used to a deliverance mentality of fighting off demons who would “come back” to an “empty house” (where the demonic was removed but where truth and righteousness had not been established), this simply cannot happen when you heal the person, because they are the house. When you heal the person, you are changing the “house” itself at the most profound level to now be incompatible with the demonic.

So, if the enemy and the woundedness can’t ever just “come back,” why do so many in healing processes from severe hurts experience such ups and downs, where it seems like they are whole and free for an evening, a few days, or maybe a week or month, and then they are right back in a pit that feels almost exactly like the hopeless, miserable pit they were in before? If they really examine things logically, they usually find that this pit is slightly different than the previous one, with a slightly different lie behind the pain, a bit different of a trigger, that it is a bit different flavor of the same theme. But in these states of overwhelming emotions, it may be difficult to take mere logic seriously. Pain has a way of overriding that until it gets healed, and it can often be easily healed in the same way as the previous pain was healed. The lessons learned in applying healing to layers one through five often apply to layers six through nine in the same person, and so it becomes smoother and easier in this way as you go.

This is just how all humans process healing in real life, in layers rather than all at once. When there is a major and severe lifetime theme of a certain type of issue, you can bet that there will be more than just one or two layers of it needing to be ministered to, more than just one or two fractured parts carrying a lifetime of extreme abuse and neglect. Often, as the person just continues on receiving healing rather than giving up because their whole life didn’t change after a small number of prayer sessions, looking to the Lord as their answer rather than putting all their hope in a certain human or a certain methodology, much more ground begins to be taken from the enemy and from the woundedness, the balance begins to shift, and fruit becomes more and more evident.

For those saying, “where is that in the Bible,” consider that no biblical character was ever “completely healed and delivered.” All of them were in a lifetime healing process with ups and downs, with re-occuring issues, and with unresolved issues up until the end. We may be used to certain hyped-up preachers making things sound different in an effort to whip up our emotions and keep the money coming in, but most of us have seen that the long-term fruit of that is usually pretty shallow.

All the people Jesus ministered healing and deliverance to still needed more. Jesus warned them that their house had been swept clean and empty and that the enemy would return seven times worse. (They had only received a surface level of healing and deliverance so far, because it was all they were willing to receive.) In alignment with Jesus’ prediction, the same multitudes who received from him to some degree in his earthly ministry went on to participate with the powers of darkness in shouting, “Give us Barrabbas!”, “Crucify him!” and, “Let his blood be upon us and upon our children!” The apostles who spent three years living, praying with, and being discipled by Jesus all failed him in his final hours, revealing that they had remaining issues in their lives and had not yet been “completely healed and delivered.”

Peter struggled with legalism, hypocrisy, and fear of man years after the resurrection and after his experience at Pentecost. Paul confessed to having “fears within” in the beginning of 2 Corinthians, and to harboring an “angelos of Satan” near the end of the same letter, which he was apparently not yet ready to be delivered from. All the apostles (except possibly John) died at the hands of persecution, which couldn’t have happened if the enemy didn’t have some kind of access to them. The Pentecostal/Charismatic fantasy of coming to a meeting, getting hands laid on you and becoming perfectly fixed in five seconds of prayer has simply never played out in scripture or in anybody’s real life experience that I’ve ever met.

Getting back to the story, this particular person going through major ups and downs, like many in the midst of such a process, was struggling with doubts over whether they were really being healed at all, whether they were only being deceived and played games with by an enemy who was letting them feel like they got total healing just to get their hopes up for a few days or weeks, but then smacking them back down to reality every time. They reached out to friends who had experience with deeper healing, asking for opinions beyond mine. Also, they began desperately praying to the Lord for input.

They were shown a vision of a spiral staircase, and they began to understand that their healing was like this spiral staircase, moving upwards but in a circular fashion. In a sense, it could feel like they were only going in circles as they experienced times of peace and freedom from feelings of abandonment, then times of feeling major abandonment strongholds coming to the surface until they received ministry to the batch of parts carrying them, then a time of feeling peace and wholeness until the next batch of wounded, abandoned parts would surface once more, needing the same kind of healing. The good news was that they were not just going in circles, but making real progress.

Immediately checking back with one of the people they had sent messages out to, they read an answer from one with lots of experience. The message began, “Think of it like a spiral staircase…” Further good news was that they went forward with receiving healing for the areas which had recently surfaced, encouraged that they were, in fact, making progress.

Hearing this person’s journey and revelation, I began to understand a bit about the spiral staircases I had seen in walls of the structure in my dream. This is a revelation in process of course, but it seems that all of our healing processes are spiral in nature rather than linear. We face some issues and get healing for them, then some more come to the surface, and we get healing for those, and anybody I’ve ever known has been in a lifetime process of this.

Some run up the spiral very quickly, experiencing the ups and downs on opposite sides daily or weekly if they are really getting help and digging deeply. Some are going through such intense battles internally that they are forced to move this quickly or to just wallow in despair and denial. Others walk up the spiral casually, without much focus on such things, preferring to make slow progress without the stress of facing too much too quickly. More people probably wander aimlessly back and forth on the spiral, not knowing if progress is even possible or that there is anything they can do to expedite it, maybe just camping in one place for years at a time with no hope of moving forward other than if God somehow “sovereignly” came down to push them forward. I think these are the people who got “totally healed and delivered” ten or twenty years ago and don’t need any more such “new Christian” experiences or “striving.” (I’m not saying striving is good; I am saying that many people use the term to avoid anything that involves facing things they don’t want to face.)

I would say our experience of these things tends to get lighter and more peaceful overall as we move farther up, but I don’t want to make it sound like anybody’s process is going to be totally comparable to anybody else’s. It seems to me that everybody’s stuff is so different that, while the basic principles are universal, the practical expression is never quite the same.

This is often a hard reality to consider though, that we are in a lifetime journey up a spiral staircase rather than an instant arrival at having it all together. It is true that the work was finished at the cross and that we are considered perfect in that greater, eternal realm outside time and space. Still, there is also the practical side of things that, within time and space, we are walking out our redemption day by day, receiving grace and partnering with it to bring what has already been won for us into this realm. Sorry, it’s still a spiral.

A common objection sounds like, “If God is really God and he wants me healed, why can’t he just bypass all the parts and issues and spiral staircases and whatever else, and just fix everything instantly, right now in response to my cry for him to rescue me?” I agree that the suffering I witness some people living in, even in the midst of their process of healing and of earnestly crying out to God for help, completely SUCKS ASS. At the same time, we need to realize that God is not only all powerful and all loving, but that he has perfect integrity.

This means that he will not, no matter what, violate his own commitments and principles of righteousness. He has given us free will and has given us an environment of freedom to operate in where he refuses to control us or to control our outcome. This requires that we humans have the ability to dig ourselves and those who follow us into some deep and intricate pits. For God to remain integrous, he cannot just violate our freedom and our process, take away the sovereignty he has given us and the parts of our hearts which have come into agreement with the enemy, and force us 100 levels up the spiral at once. If he were to do that, he wouldn’t be who he is anymore, but would be an almighty being with the character of the Devil, which would actually be a lot scarier than the prospect of needing to walk through a process.

So, instead of bypassing all the steps we have created within us (or inherited, or have allowed others to create in us during times of vulnerability,) what I’ve been shown and what I believe is that he empowers us to move up the spiral faster than humanly possible, but still at the pace we and the relevant, deeper parts of our hearts choose, to break through barriers humanly impassable. He does this with promises to somehow make it all work out for the good, that somehow the suffering of this present time will not be considered worthy to be compared with the glory that will be revealed in us (Romans 8:18).

I could testify to you of someone just recently who, after two quick prayer times of healing in the womb, has been brought out of a place of near suicide into a stable place of peace and joy with no such suicidal ideations. At the same time, I could mention those in the roughest processes who I have prayed with over and over with barely perceptible if any known results, and I could probably tell you about every level in between.  Some people’s experiences of healing sound like the greatest news ever to come straight out of heaven’s publicity department, yet, still, some other people’s current experience in their process… really sucks… (I won’t literally say that twice in the same post).

I don’t believe God is holding anything back from the second group that he gave to the first, but I’m convinced they are merely on a different place in their spiral, as well as being on a different spiral altogether, as everybody is on a very different journey.

I’ll leave you with this: If God would throw away his integrity, violate our sovereignty over our own process, and just make everything instantly better because we want everything to be better, one would think he would do that for the entire world, and that if such a thing were possible, we would be living in an instant utopia rather than co-laboring to bring redemption to creation one step at a time as we actually are.

On second thought, if God were to throw away his integrity like that, I’m not sure he would any longer be a person interested in making the world any better. I’m pretty sure that would lead to an actual cosmic proportioned sick joke much worse than what the enemy is able to play on us for the limited period of time that he currently is.

Inviting Jesus to Work in Your Inner-World



In recent times I’ve become more aware of needs for further healing in my own life. Working with lots of other people’s stuff can be a mirror, and Holy Spirit has gotten some things through to me. Healing more fragments has been a big aspect of my recent process.

When I first started working with fragments, my experiences were more dramatic. Internal and even external shifts were obvious. Spiritual experiences and sensations were sometimes overwhelming. Those seemed to be bigger or more significant fractured parts than what I’m able to dig up now. Today, all my experiences of this sort of thing are very subtle. Often, the results in my life are nearly imperceptible. The remaining fragments seem to be so much smaller than the ones I was getting healed originally. I’m led to continue inviting the Lord to heal my fragments though, with a pretty clear promise that it will greatly open up certain areas of my spiritual life that I long to have opened most.

Many times, I tend to go right after the source of the problem when I pray with someone. This often looks like going straight to a felt or discerned wound or fractured part, and healing it directly or inviting the Lord into that place to begin working. I love seeing the evidence of change after clearly getting in touch with an issue and then getting it resolved so that only peace remains where there had been significant turmoil before. I love seeing the fruit of such ministry in a testable way rather than just going “by faith” (which is a legitimate way to operate, though for some it can actually be more like wishful thinking).

Today though, I have a hard time going after my own stuff so directly since I’ve done so much of it in the past and seem to have traced down and resolved just about all the noticeable, painful stuff I could consciously get in touch with.

I’m still aware of various “themes” or life-issues I could use lots of progress on, but I don’t tend to feel any strongly wounded emotions connected to them, nor do I find individual parts carrying many felt pains. I just know that there must be something that needs more healing, and other trustworthy people have discerned that I need to continue receiving this sort of healing as well.

It isn’t that I don’t have any significant wounds, but maybe the wounds remaining are made up of so many subtle components contributing to the larger issue that they are very difficult to track down.

What I’m finding more effective for me these days, rather than feeling the problems and starting from there, is to just establish a connection with the Lord and then to unleash him into my inner world, observing where he goes and what he does. He seems to find all sorts of parts and strongholds that I would never expect, and which are usually too subtle for me to even become aware of in any other way.

I’m going to share a recent example of how this has looked for me in practice, with a few teaching moments along the way for those who would like to try it themselves:


I used an image of a campfire as a starting point, and invited Jesus to join me there. As a Jesus looking figure showed up in my imagination, I used my intention to look into his eyes, tuning into my feelings and senses to see what kind of discernment I would get of his nature as reflected in his eyes, whether it was the true, all good Jesus or not.

I began to have a sense of all good things, affectionate things, joyful things, as I used my intention to look into the eyes, and so I was assured that this was the real Jesus. I do tend to check rather than assume, because I only want the real Jesus ministering to the most vulnerable parts of me, not just anybody who may get away with showing up sometimes and looking like a bearded guy in a robe.

Another way you can check if it’s the real Jesus is by observing the nature and fruit of what he does. Is it life giving, effective, and comforting, or is it abusive and reinforcing of woundedness? In this case, I let him lead and minister to me, releasing affection and other kinds of input to me as an adult for a while.

After a bit, I invited him to move in my inner world (observed through my imagination), to see if there was anything he wanted to heal. He immediately went to a number of young “me’s” (fragments of me) and began healing them up. As they were healed and moved on to a better location than where they had been found, apparently beamed up into heaven, he then went over to a large bubble and began pulling on something deep within the bubble.

It turned out that this was a fragment of me stuck in the womb that he was pulling on. This little guy seemed to like where he was, just chilling in a sac of amniotic fluid, but he was also carrying bondage the Lord wanted to remove. Jesus was pulling him to the surface with fervor, and even shouting into the bubble, expressing urgency about his need for healing. The “me” inside the amniotic fluid was stirred into action and began to allow Jesus to heal him. He was taken out of the bubble, birthed into the world, and then brought to a better place to continue processing. My job, during all this, was just to observe and let Jesus do all the work.

He began changing the atmosphere of this location within my inner self, opening the heavens over it to allow sunlight, warmth, and all kinds of good things to fill it. He even seemed to set various objects up for the sake of reflecting or refracting light. He then began to pull on some kind of rope, bringing a large group of parts up to the surface of this area from underground. I heard the word “abandonment” associated with them, and they seemed to be a bunch of parts created through wounds of abandonment. I could actually feel the emotions of abandonment they were carrying.

As Jesus healed them all, he led them into a single-file line and they began walking towards him. Right at his feet, they seemed to drop into the ground and to become integrated into me, and I felt a small shift taking place within as they did so.

Next, Jesus continued landscaping, arranging certain sections of land for the purpose of growing or containing certain plantings/fruit, and he created a channel in between the plots of land. He invited a large yellow ball of light, reminiscent of a star or of the sun into this place, and directed it to begin rolling down this channel and towards a dark pit. As the huge ball of light fell into the pit, Jesus brought in a second sun-like ball of light and allowed it to roll into the pit as well. The two “suns” began to rotate around each other inside this pit, creating a luminous effect. (Revelation refers to certain heavenly beings as “stars.” I wonder if these are a high order of angels?)

This pit, now lit up by two suns working in synergy, was filled with prisons that contained small fragments. Jesus removed all the prison bars and let them out, healing them and taking them to a better place to continue receiving help. Next, at the bottom of the prison, were found a group of reptiles crawling around on the floor, and Jesus began to sit with them, allowing them to crawl all over him, letting them get to know him.

I believe that these “reptiles” were actually what are known in some circles (HeartSync circles for instance) as “sub-cortical parts.” This is where some kind of trauma happens as such an early stage of development that parts were formed even before higher centers of the brain came online. Many animal type parts are found who represent fractures at the level of the “primitive brain” or brainstem, possibly from earlier stages in the womb. Their state is much like that of an animal, motivated by primitive drives without higher levels of function or comprehension. Seeds can also be found, representing the earliest stages of womb life or even pre-conception parts of the spirit.

As Jesus hung out with these reptiles, they soon turned into babies, and as I left him with them and checked back in a few minutes later, they had grown to young children. Jesus had been nurturing them and growing them up to maturity quickly. He dispatched the enemy, taught them a few lessons, and then led them out of the pit/prison to continue their healing and processing.

This is just one of many possibilities of what inviting Jesus to work in your inner world may end up looking like. So many different locations, structures, parts, strongholds, giftings, etc. can be found and ministered to as we just let him loose to dig up and heal whatever he chooses to.

It helps if you have some level of understanding and comfort with things in this realm, so that it doesn’t seem too “weird” and unbelievable to you. I receive many impressions visually, but if you don’t, that doesn’t mean you can’t do this. You could sense what is happening through hearing, or feeling, or knowing, or however you perceive things. You could maybe just invite him to move within you in these kinds of ways by faith and allow him to do it whether you have any specific sense of what he is doing or not. There are many things in the above example that I don’t totally understand or know all the details of, but my lack of full understanding doesn’t stop the Lord from moving.

Healing Spirit, Soul, & Body (plus a lil’ freaky stuff)


One woman had come out of a criminal background not many years earlier and was asking for prayer. She was walking with the Lord now but still carrying pain from her old life. Right before she could begin to share what she wanted help with, she began to be tormented by pressure and pain around her head.

I saw this as a likely spiritual attack against her and took authority over it. The pain didn’t leave but moved to a different area in her head. This got my attention since I’ve seen it numerous times. It is a typical sign of spiritual resistance from the demonic, where pain will move to different parts of the body when prayed against.

I continued commanding the source of this pain to leave. It would just move around to different parts of her head no matter what I did. The pain would even move around her head to face me as I walked a circle around her. The spiritual source behind this must have had rights of some kind to be there, or it would never have been able to resist authority in Christ like that.

Usually, I tend to be more focused on the person and their needs than on dueling back and forth with a spirit like this, but that day, I was going after the thing. I didn’t like how it was interfering with her trying to get help, and I wanted to make it clear that this wouldn’t be allowed. I asked the Lord to show me what rights it had to resist so stubbornly.

I first had a sense of a time when she had been much younger, had been left alone by loved ones, and feeling very abandoned. I asked her about this, and she told me that she wasn’t aware of such an experience from her very young years.

However, the issue she wanted help with was an issue of feeling abandoned by people and by God more recently, when all her drug and crime buddies had been killed or sent to prison. This had taken place some years ago, not long before she had recommitted her life to Christ.

She had trusted God to take care of her, had prayed for his protection for her and her friends, but obviously hadn’t been following him fully. She felt a lot of pain and anger at the Lord for the devastation that had happened to all her friends’ lives, and how she was left lonely even when she had trusted in his protection.

Interesting interpretation of events, right? Nevertheless, it was how she felt. I wonder if there really was an earlier episode of severe abandonment which colored her perspective to focus on the loss rather than to focus on how, after praying for protection, she survived a lifestyle that none of her friends had, and then was delivered from it.

I had her confess her anger at God as sin and trust him to take it from her based on the promise that Jesus is “the Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world” (John 1:29). She did so, and he took the anger out of her immediately along with her feelings of abandonment.

Sometimes (like this time), various painful emotions will leave along with the anger without even needing to be addressed. In other instances, you will need to specifically take the other emotions to the cross. He removes them completely either way. This is what he died for.

I once more commanded the spirit causing the head pains to leave, and the pain only moved around again without leaving. Apparently, the spirit still had some kind of “right” to be there.

I tried an old approach from back in the days when I had learned more deliverance-based work. I put the spirit on trial before the throne of God (by a simple declaration of faith that I was doing so) and commanded it to confess what right it still had to be present. I instructed the woman to listen for whatever thoughts came to her mind and to simply tell me the first thing that popped into her head as I “interrogated” the spirit. The answer she got was “pity.”

It was true. She had become full of self-pity over that situation we had just prayed about. She had always been talking about it to whomever would listen. I had her repent for the self-pity and trust the Lord to remove the grief/sorrow from her heart based on his promise in Isaiah 53 that he bore our griefs and carried our sorrows. The sorrow was immediately lifted from her along with the pain which had been manifesting in her head. There would be no more “smart headache” to contend with as we continued.

In only trying to get rid of a hindrance to doing ministry, we had done quite a bit of the ministry already. So far we had dealt with her anger at God over the tragedy of losing her friends to death and prison, along with her feelings of abandonment. She had come out of agreement with self-pity and had been freed from the grief she had carried over the years.

She shared that she still felt “shattered” inside though, and had felt that way ever since the tragedies in her friends’ lives took place. I asked the Lord to show me the condition of her human spirit so that I could pray healing over that area.

I saw her spirit poured out on the ground like water. It was not only shattered but shattered into so many little bits that it was now a liquid. This liquid spirit was lying face down, prostrate on the ground in brokenness. I was led to speak to her spirit and call it back together, to call it back into an upright position, into a solid form again. The woman began to exclaim, “I feel like I just found myself! I feel solid inside again after so many years!”

Not only was it important to minister to the issues of the soul related to this tragedy (anger, abandonment, grief, and self-pity), but it was important to heal her spirit too.

This may all sound like shockingly and unbelievably quick and easy solutions to such serious pains. It is true, though, and is even repeatable. The gospel is that good. The work of the cross is that real and effective for even the deepest areas of our being.

Self-pity will get us feeling sorry for ourselves and making our issues out to be bigger than God, as if they are so special they could only ever be helped by some long and difficult process. We may have settled into hopelessness, choosing to believe that freedom is impossible, maybe even getting much of our identity from our problems. We become trapped in a victim mentality with no awareness of our authority in Christ and no hope or faith.

Our issues are not bigger than God. They are less than a speck of dust to him. There are so many things which can easily and quickly be healed or removed, even many things which seem overwhelming and life-defining at the time.

This has been an excerpt from a soon to be released book, “Divine Healing for Spirit, Soul, & Body,” and has been edited by the mysterious literary figure known as “Anonymous Moth.”

In no way is this story meant to discredit those who are in a more complex healing process, who legitimately need more time to resolve the various twists and turns they must navigate as they learn to allow the Lord to heal many issues. The broad point I’ve made here is not that our lives should always be simple and easy or else we’re wrong (how ridiculous), but that when one’s process is simple or complex, major hurts and strongholds can be miraculously resolved much faster than we would ever tend to think.

Even when someone’s healing process is more complicated, we can still trust the Lord to do things far beyond what any human method could accomplish. We don’t give up on the promises and faithfulness of God when it appears to not be getting results right away, but we find the loophole, the reason for the hold-up, and we apply God’s faithfulness and some more of his promises to resolving that, and then we do see the results. This lesson was demonstrated in the healing account above in several places, despite how I expect some in rougher, more frustrating processes to take this all the opposite way at first. My heart goes out to them and I include this qualification/explanation for their sake.

The book, written by Diane Moyer and myself,  goes deep into exploring different aspects of miraculous healing for various parts of our being, and how they all interrelate. Beyond that, many foundational “why” questions about the subject are answered from our personal revelations and experiences, our own journeys are shared, how God has revealed his heart to us over the years in very different ways, as well as how he has freed us from many religious mentalities that typically sabotage healing.

If you liked “Broken to Whole,” this one speaks to some of the same basic subjects such as parts and Core Identities, but goes more broad into other areas of divine healing, laying a foundation of understanding and revelation of the Lord’s heart and ways. This is important for effectively receiving healing, as well as for ministering at this level.

Sources of HeartSync info

HeartSync is a ministry that focuses on connecting various parts of the human heart with God and with each other. I consider their materials cutting edge and as good as anything out there gets. Here are a few sites that share some in-depth information which is very relevant for deeper healing of many kinds:

Part One: “HeartSync” — a psycho-spiritual treatment for trauma and attachment disorders.

New Book Out

You may have wondered why the posts dropped off. I’ve been working on a few books.

This first one, Broken to Whole: Inner Healing for the Fragmented Soul, was a group project with five other authors, each sharing their unique revelations and experiences on the subject of healing fractured parts. I’ve included more in-depth material and many real-life examples in the book than in all these posts combined. It has been selling well and going to some interesting places. If you are interested in learning more about the subject, I recommend purchasing it.

As much as I like to keep things simple and streamlined, I’ve gone to the trouble of putting together a real website for the sake of getting this info out. It isn’t anything super-impressive, but at least it comes across a bit more serious than an anonymous blog.

Here’s a link to my new site, where I’m in the process of transferring blog content over to and adding new articles and such as well. You will find a link to buy the book there too (second link goes straight to the book page).



Another book “Divine Healing for Spirit, Soul, and Body” is on its way soon. This one is a project with one other author, Diane Moyer, goes deep into the heart behind healing, how the Lord has revealed his heart to us, and how physical, emotional, and spiritual healing are intertwined.

It provides answers to big questions such as why many struggle to obtain physical, spiritual, and emotional healing, and includes many real-life stories of the miraculous on all these levels. It doesn’t go as deep into parts ministry as the other book, but covers a more broad array of subjects such as healing the human spirit, synchronizing core identities, generational cleansing, etc., while focusing on heart rather than technique. It promises to help many find freedom and understanding in areas which are commonly clouded, to help many build a foundation to go deep in each of the many aspects of healing discussed.

A Glimpse Into the Afterlife: Plundering the Gates of Hell, Freeing Captives in this World and That



Before I was scheduled to pray for a woman, I was shown to go after freeing her from disembodied human spirits which had been passed down her generational line.

I’m talking about dead people. People who have passed on and who were still spiritually bound. They are sometimes caught in captivity by the demonic and used to oppress their own descendants (or others). I’ve run into this consistently, and have seen real fruit from freeing people from such things (including in my own life).

Here is a link to Dave Nevins’ quick explanation of this subject if it is a new one to you.

The enemy has no power other than what we give him, so what better way to establish his foothold in people than to implant the spirits of his captives within them. This seems to be a very common strategy which he uses to fortify his grip on people and on geographic locations.

I’ve found that these human spirits infect their host with the spiritual bondages, physical and emotional issues they themselves carry. Sometimes they even intentionally work against the person, either out of their personal wounding and malice or on a direct assignment from the enemy.

Some are just lost or operating with a more neutral type of agenda, looking to get a need met or not knowing where else to go. Freeing someone from disembodied human spirits not only tends to clear them from whatever problems were being caused by their presence, but can lead to these spirits meeting the Lord, finding redemption, healing, and deliverance, moving on into glory.

I was shown a “boss” human spirit, a large and broad man, appearing dark skinned, who was in charge of the captivity of a number of other human spirits. He himself was under the authority of the enemy. I was led to try to reach him, to set him and those under his authority free, which would free the woman up from the bondages they were carrying. When I told her about the “boss” (without sharing identifying characteristics), she said that she had seen him standing at the foot of her bed the night before. She described him as a very large, scary man with somewhat dark colored skin.

One exciting aspect of this prayer time, besides the opportunity to explore an area few have shared much detail about publicly, was the fact that the woman I was praying for is incredibly spiritually sensitive. She sees visions like movies playing in front of her in HD clarity, and has a very strong sense of when the Lord is confirming the truth of this or that revelation. She had little to no grid for this subject, and so this experience was shaping up to be a great learning experience for the both of us.


Meeting “Boss Man.”

I called for this boss spirit within her to come to attention, sharing that I wanted to free him as well as his host from all the torment and bondage they were living in. I invited the Boss Man to tell me his story or to share anything he wanted to share. The woman I was praying for could see him, and but could tell that he wasn’t too happy with me or willing to talk. His lips were sealed tight, other than apparently the words, “Let’s tango.”

I used a tool I’ve found effective in working with fractured parts, which I’ve also found to be effective with disembodied human spirits. (People are people, alive, dead, or fractured, they can be healed and freed in the same ways.) I bound and restrained the demonic from manipulating or controlling the man, and asked him if he was willing to be freed from it. When he said yes, I simply commanded all the demonic to leave him and never return. He softened up quite a bit after that quick prayer.

As the Boss Man began to share, it turned out that he was in charge of a number of other human spirits within this woman, and that he reported to the “Black One.” He was unwilling to break his agreement with the “Black One,” saying that the other spirits needed it “especially the little one.” I questioned him about what the Black One did for them, trying to find out what need was being met so that I could share how the Lord could do a better job of meeting those needs.

Did the Black One offer some kind of protection? Boss Man said no.  He said that the Black One didn’t do a whole lot for any of them. I thought maybe the only reason Boss Man was unwilling to break agreement would be a fear of punishment, for himself and for the ones under his authority.

I declared that I was binding up the “Black One” in chains, completely immobilizing him so that he could do no harm, dragging him into the room before the Boss Man, and putting him down on the floor. Boss Man said that he could now see the “Black One” lying in front of him bound. It turned out as I suspected, that this Black One was a huge demon.

I shared that the human spirits didn’t have anything to worry about from this guy. I shared that Jesus could meet all his needs and the needs of the other spirits, could heal and free them all, including the little one he had spoken of. Boss Man replied, “Who is this Jesus?”

I declared by faith that I was putting a movie in front of the Boss Man, which would show who Jesus is. Boss watched the movie and then said he was “unmoved.” I told him that Jesus was the one who gave me authority to put the Black One in chains. Boss was unimpressed, saying that he’d seen it done before.

I asked him who he had seen put the Black One in chains before? Boss said, “the Red One.” I wondered if there had been some encounter with an angel, or maybe with a praying Christian or something like that. I asked Boss if “the Red One” was a good guy or a bad guy. Boss shared that he was “very mean and vicious.” (That sounded like a bad guy to me.)

I declared that I was now binding the “Red One” in chains, completely immobilizing him so that he could do no harm, and dragging him into the room, putting him down on the floor next to “Black One” at Boss’ feet. It turned out that Red One was an even bigger, nastier demon than Black One, but was now rendered powerless just the same.

I asked Boss if he could see the Red One next to Black One now, and he said “Yes,” exclaiming, “I believe!” He became willing to meet this Jesus I had spoken of.

Before inviting Jesus in, just as when working with fractured parts, I’ve found it necessary to get the human spirits to break all agreements with other spirits who have been in the Lord’s place in their lives. Otherwise, Jesus refuses to override the person’s will and they tend to encounter evil counterfeits rather than the true Jesus. I asked Boss if he’d been involved in the occult or any religions, trying to discern whether he would have picked up any bad “spirit guides.”

Boss said that no, he hadn’t been involved in any religions or spiritual practices, but that he did have an agreement with Death. He described Death as being a dark figure whose face was hidden under a brown hood. I offered to put that guy in chains too, to bring him in and seat him next to the other two, just to show that he had nothing to worry about from breaking agreement.

Boss replied, “NO! DON’T DO THAT!” He seemed to be terrified at the idea of bringing the brown hooded one into the room, and the woman I was praying for could feel his overwhelming terror herself. She nearly wanted to stop the session because the emotions she was feeling from this man were so extreme now.

Boss man said the chains wouldn’t be necessary, that he would simply break his agreement with Death. I got his permission to have Death, Black One, Red One, and all other bad spirits totally removed, along with the fear he was feeling. As I was commanding all that to go, the woman felt the fear leave and the wild emotions settle down.

When we invited Jesus to come in and reveal himself, the woman heard Boss exclaim, “My Lord!” and “I’ve come home!” I asked Boss to examine this Jesus, to tell us what he saw, especially in his eyes. I was making sure that this was not a counterfeit, that it truly had love in the eyes. Boss described this Jesus as “the embodiment of compassion, Life itself, Love, Warmth, a cool drink of water.” I said that sounds like the real Jesus! (and come to think of it, I guess it turns out you can get a glass of ice water in hell if you know who to ask…)

Jesus related to the Boss a bit, and then opened four cast-iron doors behind him. Out of three of those doors came numerous human spirits, some with happy grins, others with tears of joy, rushing out to meet Jesus, finding healing and freedom. Behind the fourth door was an animal like creature, which Jesus healed, turning it back into the form of a child.

Jesus brought the child to the woman, integrated it into her. He led the group of human spirits, Boss included, away to a better place out of captivity and outside the living woman.

This woman described herself as “light as a feather and glowing” after all this was done. She commented that she couldn’t believe how light she felt, how heavy all those human spirits must have been.